When you are not settled and going through so many changes, it is hard to focus and blog. I have started so many blog posts and had so many ideas, but I can’t find my flow or the rights words to finish them. My best blogs have popped up in my head and flew off of my fingers, so I am slow to post ones that take a lot of energy to complete. I am in a transitory period and I am not in touch with my balanced and centered self. My heart is South Carolina with grandma and my soul is in Maryland holding down the fort. The most important pieces of me are not close and that leaves me feeling very imbalanced.
This adjustment period was necessary and would have been so much harder with my son. I needed the time and energy to make good decisions and to find a rhythm. My son won’t be coming into chaos but a mom who is settled in at work, settled into a new apartment, and has set up his new educational experience at a center close to our house. I hate that I cannot see my little boy and I miss him terribly, but these past few months have shown me how much he needs consistency.
I want to blog when my heart is totally in it and I can relay the message that I know is needed. I do not have a quota to fill so I am going to focus on quality and not quantity. When something hits me and I can put out a few hundred words I will, but bear with me until I get the pieces of me back together! I am learning so much about myself and my purpose and I cannot wait to share the lessons that have been revealed to me over this rough summer, after making a huge move, and after seeing my failing bar results. I have grown more in the past month than I have in the past year! 2014 has been rough but I will not let any of it be in vain.
Do not force your greatness. Do not pre-release your wisdom. Let your lessons be a natural light. Be you. Do you. Tell your own story. On your own terms.