How many of us are living the life that has been defined by someone else? How many of us are breathing stale air and reminiscing on forgotten dreams? I continuously question my purpose, my passion, and my place in this world. I decided to stop chasing after the “American Dream” and to focus more on being. Being present, being passionate, being happy, being grateful. I am no longer here to operate in the narrow halls of societies definition of life, but to expand my presence to cover as much space as possible.
We get so caught up in trying to obtain something that we miss out on the experience, the lessons, the journey. We wish for the end at the beginning and refuse to appreciate the process. The struggle is real, but it is also the place where we grow the most. We plant a seed and we want it to grow right now, but in reality there is an entire process that has to take place before the seedling can even breakthrough the soil. Even after seedlings have broken through the hard ground, they are not ready to be harvested. There is still more cultivation of the crop that has to take place.
The work that it took to prepare the ground, till the ground, and protect the crop is tiresome. If any steps are missed, all of the handwork that you put into the harvest will be wasted. At every step of the process it may not seem that the work that you are putting in is worth it, but you have to remember why you even took the first step down this road. Be where you are. Be in that moment. Be aware. Be awake. Be engaged. You are here for a reason that is greater than this moment. Just BE.
Every step may not be easy, but every step is worth. Make sure you are walking in the right direction and not going backwards because you cannot see what is next. Take a moment and be grateful. Count your blessings. Express gratitude for your today.
Just BE. Be you. Do you. Tell your own story. On your own terms.
Do not be anxious about anything, but in every situation, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. Phillippians 4:6
When things seem to be spiraling out of control, take a step back from it all and have a quiet moment with God. Make your desires and needs known to Him and let Him transform a seemingly large problem into effective solutions. In the quiet of that moment, your sincerity and honesty is what God wants to see. He wants to see you vulnerable and submitting to the great things He has in store for you. People can make suggestions but God is the only problem solver. He can use those who you would never reach out to, to turn your problems around. Don’t be anxious. Pray. Be thankful. Make your requests known. Be you. Do you. Tell your own story. On your own terms.
This flood has given me the opportunity to go through some old journals, letters, cards and notes I have written to myself or received from others. The timing is amazing because graduation always brings on a spirit of reminiscing. Despite some of the damage that the flood has done, it has also brought a level of healing and elevation that was unexpected. One of the boxes that was unsalvageable contained my 2008 graduation gifts from my family. One of the items was a personalized keepsake box that I put a few pictures in, a $1.00 bill, my cords, and a note that contained all of my worries. I listed out my worries which included making my student loan payments, my family and my future. But at the end of that letter, this is what I wrote:
” My prayer: God I pray that you take all of my worries and work them out for my good. May your will be done in my life. Help me to be all that you want me to be, walking in my purpose and destiny. Thank you in advance. Amen.”
Everything that I worried about in 2009, God WORKED IT OUT. I always orally expressed that I never wanted to get married but in my writings to myself it consistently appears. Five years ago no one could have paid me to believe that I would be where I am today, still with worries but not the ones I had 5 years ago. But I took my worries and gave them to God and He worked every single one of them out.
I hope this post inspires someone to take all of their burdens off of themselves and release it through writing or verbalizing and then look back a few days, months or years from now and see how it has been worked out FOR YOUR GOOD. Be blessed. Be you. Do you. Live in your truth. Tell your story. On your own terms.